Saturday, May 03, 2008
i used to be so jealous of them. and i didnt know why. i don't know him. i barely knew her, didn't like her in the first place. so why was i so jealous? why the horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach? it bothered me for over a week, then finally i understood.
my situation was different. what applied to them, didn't apply to my life. it looked normal, even boring to others but to me, it was something i wanted, craved, desired. but it was so far away from me.
i wanted the same perfect life. it looked perfect on the outside. their content faces. their pure childish, naivete innocence. i had that once upon a lifetime. but now it doesn't happen anymore.
today, i'm not so much that envious. just an occasional twinge on how life would be so much better if it was.
my situation was different. what applied to them, didn't apply to my life. it looked normal, even boring to others but to me, it was something i wanted, craved, desired. but it was so far away from me.
i wanted the same perfect life. it looked perfect on the outside. their content faces. their pure childish, naivete innocence. i had that once upon a lifetime. but now it doesn't happen anymore.
today, i'm not so much that envious. just an occasional twinge on how life would be so much better if it was.
what we could have been, 2:37 pm.
